You'd think it wouldn't take two weeks for the doctors to tell me I have a kidney stone. I knew that already. Like what the hell?
Really? You're gonna say "can I slap your girlfriend's ass?" right in front of me when I'm with her. Say whatever you want about me, I couldn't really care less, but I draw the line when you say something about my girlfriend. This is what I mean when I say I'm surrounded by immature douchebags.
See I would, but he crosses the line when he says that shit about my girlfriend. I felt like punching him in the face, but hey, I held myself back to shove. But I can't go too far, or he might call me a racist and get me suspended like he did 4 other people this year. He's a punk, he can't take any hate or he calls you racist, even if it is just a joke. And I'm even more mad now cause my grades are starting to suck for this marking period. Fuck me for trying so hard.
I can't stand how everybody at work has such a preconceived image of me. Just because I dress and act feminine they assume I'm a total girly girl who does nothing else besides listening to Britney Spears, watching chick flicks and staying at home knitting on a Saturday night or something. Today I was talking about how I lost money at the casino last weekend and they were like "You went gambling?!" Uuuhhh yeah, I'm a grown ass woman you know! It irritates me to no end.
I fucked up each and every one of my admission exams.Now i can't get admission in a public university and my father doesn't have enough money for me to get admitted in a private university.I wasted all my time doing nothing when i should have been studying hard.all my friends have gotten admitted into a university except me and from this year most of the universities of my country have banned second time candidates from participating in the admission exams.I don't know what to do now.I've messed up my whole life and i'm feeling like a complete failure.
I feel like the worst words you can ever hear from a teacher is "I am disappointed in you." I don't care if it sounded sarcastic to you, I did something so fucking stupid and I understand why she'd say that. Why in the hell did I do that? That's not me to do that.
My now ex fiance had another boyfriend on the side. Broke off our 3 year relationship. Struggled with a severe opiate addiction. Checked myself into a rehab. 30 days clean. Feeling better than I have in years. But life's great but I'm fighting demons. Also just lost a friend to suicide. Lost my apartment and job. Life's fucked but I'm striving for greatness. How's that for venting out?
Man, i wish you all the best. That all must be pretty hard. I wish you enough strenght for the next time.
Pretty odd position I'm in at work right now. Basically at the end of last year I was so done with this company, I wanted to part ways so bad but I got scared at the idea of being somewhere else at the same time. So this year I decided I was going to let it out more often and I had my two bosses sat down at work. Told them about everything that was bothering me, how things were not going well overall and actually felt good about it because they took it well, better than I thought actually. Thing is that, with my "honesty", despite gaining some confidence towards my bosses, I've started to have issues with some coworkers (luckily not my friends or the people I share an office with) because they can't tolerate the truth. Some even fear me and resort to not speaking to me altogether. I didn't want to become that "bitch" at work (in retrospective I think I was too nice last year), but unfortunately if you don't hold your shit together, I will call you out and that's where I am right now. Me and my friends grew tired of cleaning up and looking after other people's mess. Ugh.
Man, I have this weird persistent belief that the world is hollow and that everything that we do is just artificial constructs. If that makes sense. It's a bit more complex than that. It does make me feel extremely disillusioned and detached at times. I don't like the train of thought, it makes me tired and frustrated with myself but I also don't want to let it go and I believe that this is the real truth that nobody else wants to face. Man, this is going to make me sound insane but I'm actually doing quite well! Just a permanent existential crisis for me I guess.
God fucking dammit... Way to start off the year with getting scammed out of $1800 to a guy we thought we were legitimately renting a place from. So fucking pissed right now. Absolute bullshit.. This is the last time we'll ever deal with anyone on craigslist.
Man, maybe this isnt really a problem, but i just can good with my ex. This is weird. I mean, i like it how we are in the moment, but... i want the things be more again. I mean all is good right now, but things could be more better for me in my opinion. This stuff confuses me... (I drove her home after a playing evening with some friends and we can talk to each other pretty good...)
Anger is not becoming of me. It's always so interesting how things can just come together to form the perfect storm. -_-