What the hell is with me recently and on a whim pouring out my soul to random people... I have a problem.
Do you have someone close to you in your personal life to talk to? Maybe someone that isn't close but someone you can trust? That's always the much healthier path of communication when you're under anxiety or suffering from some kind of depression.
I have almost nothing to be happy about today. What a birthday, sit in my room all day typing a stupid research paper. And that's only the beginning of my sadness. There hasn't been a single day this past week where I haven't felt like crying.
Happy birthday dude! Fuck a research paper, today's your day and do whatever you want. You'll get a thousand more research papers in the future.
Thanks, Filip! Well really the only way I want to spend my day is with my girlfriend who is gone all day due to her being in the school musical (which I already saw last night), and I can't even go shopping either due to my parents not being home for most of the day. And don't even mention guy friends, I seem to be growing more and more distant from them everyday, and for good reasons. Then there's the multitude of other things upsetting me. *sigh* Theres always next weekend to do something.
Happy Birthday : ) I hope everything gets better for you - sincerely. It's horrible to be down on your birthday. I know it isn't much, but you have friends who care about you here. Whatever is going on today for your birthday in real life lol, I hope it turns out for the better. I'm horrible at trying to lift people up... I always say the wrong thing. And I know it's easier said than done... but try to make the most of your week as soon as things change.
Thanks a lot my day ended up going better, I finished my paper and my girlfriend got home from the musical earlier than expected so I got to spend some time with her. I'm certainly in a better mood than I started out.
I feel genuinely used by everyone. I invest so much in helping everyone I know and I always end up with the short end of the stick.
I've experienced the same thing over the years. Guess that's why my patience with people has slowly digressed over the years. If there's something specifically you want to talk about, just PM me.
Why is it you can't provide a suggestion on how to do something better or more effectively to someone without being accused of being pretentious and not understanding of the effort it took to do it?
To him: You know I really tried to help you. And you lashing out at me didnt help at all. All I did afterwards was unfollow you to give you space and you block me. I talked you out of suicide, I tried to make you feel good whenever you felt ugly, insecure ect., I made you a drawing then out of all the things we have in common the first thing you gotta talk about is inappropriate things? I gave you a second and third chance because I knew you were suffering. Im sorry I cant play this game no more. You made it look like it was my fault when in reality, you have no credibility to be saying those things to me because you have done worse. I loved you. I admired you. I would have done anything just to see you in real life. But yet you take advantage of your fans like this. Goodbye.
I really need to think about my acting in more open places, especially when i drunk something... I am an fucking idiot sometimes...