Well not exactly giving me shit but my parents did not really understand why I was so depressed over a singer's death despite me telling them he was my favorite and I've been listening to him for over 14 years. Dad was kinda understanding but Mom was dumbfounded. Especially just days in, I was not talking properly, hardly slept, tearing up and all that. So my parents thought it was some other serious issue and not this. My friends were definitely more understanding because they knew how much I adore these guys.
Of course they do so I keep everything inside, come here or sometimes talk to a girl I met online. Chester was some insignificant person for my friends in real life and they don't ask anything and I'm even embarrassed to say I'm going to the memorial because in their opinion that's not what adults do. However, I think I'm getting better, sure I still can't watch videos or have to be in a special mood, can't listen to some songs and wonder why but it's not every day anymore that I'm very sad. I still think of him every day and am sad but it's better than it used to be.
At work & crying right now cause I'm an emotional mess. Luckily I'm alone so it doesn't matter... Ironically I thought I was doing better so idk where all these emotions are coming from.
My mother has fortunately been very supportive. She knew what impact Linkin Park had on my life, and how important they were to me. I think she was even hurt by his passing as well. But I have seen friends go through what you said, and it angers me. Highly.
Nope. My instagram has been mainly Linkin Park, my Facebook has been all Linkin Park. One person in real life that I've talked to this about has been supportive because he's also a Linkin Park fan and just as sad as me. No one has said anything negative about me doing so. One person actually said positive things to me about it. In general I never really talked about Linkin Park in real life except to a few people over the years. So having LPA and now a Linkin Park Seattle Facebook group have helped.
Unfortunately, life doesn't stop at this moment and let me grief in peace even though I'm not as sad as I used to be. I just wish everything could be back to normal without fighting with my parents, my mum mourning her brother so I could mourn in peace. Everything is too stressful, trying to balance between parents, friends and my own feelings of not being too well. I could turn to LP music at the times like this but now it's too much to listen to it. Today a thought of visiting a psychologist came to my mind again but it will have to wait because I don't have time aand it's still a tabu here so my parents can never know. I can't tell them anything because Chester was just some stupid guy who killed himself, they don't even know how much LP means to me and I want to keep it that way.
Yes. Mum told me more than once to grow up and stop being so silly over someone I never knew. Linkin park have been a huge part of my life for a long time though and I feel like chester was a bit of a safety net for me
Yeah I've been hit with the "I don't get it, you're being dramatic" comment too. It is disheartening but you just remember that we have supportive people like the ones on LPA, and you'll be good.
Yeah, I've not been doing well. It's as if everything went to hell as soon as Chester passed. Just problem after problem, emotional turmoil after emotional turmoil. It has not gotten any better for me.
Im so sorry to hear that. I hope that you can find a way to heal , I know nothing can happen over night and everything seems like there's no way out. I've been taking it one day at a time. I just finished watching live at Milton Keynes and cried my heart out . Im still having trouble accepting his death and just feel so shattered. My close ones don't see that I feel broken about it . It's been tough for me this year as well because it's been a lot of downs and with Chester passing it has made it x10 worse. I feel like I'm stuck on a emotional roller coaster and can't seem to get myself off of it . Linkin Park has made a huge impact on my life since I was 10 yrs old . They've been the ones to heal me at my worst times . I don't know what to do, besides appreciate the music they've done but it's sad to know chesters voice won't be heard anymore .
I feel you. This year has been rough on me and a lot of people. I found my grandfather dead a few months ago and I have been struggling to deal with that trauma...Chester's death is not helping either.
Chester was huge on '80s music i.e. Depeche Mode, The Smiths, etc. so it wouldn't surprise me the least if he were still around, came upon that video, and couldn't stop replaying it. Jah, I miss him .