Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

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  1. Disenchanted

    Disenchanted The Black Parade is Dead! LPA Super Member

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    It's like my mind is clouded. I can't think straight. First I think too much, now I can't think clearly.
    This headache isn't making stuff better, either. Meh.
     
  2. Roubin

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    I'm currently in a music block: I cannot write lyrics cause no verses come to my mind, I am losing my creativity. Shiiiiit!!!!
     
  3. Linja

    Linja Good. Be magnanimous. Über Member

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    I went to an aqua park and busted my lip today.

    Following another train of thought, I think I'm really lonely.
     
  4. Fox

    Fox Love & Trolls LPA Super Member

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    :hug:! Don't!

    ... I know how you are feeling, but things will get better. Just be patience and wait a little bit more! Someone really special is waiting for you ;)
     
  5. Linja

    Linja Good. Be magnanimous. Über Member

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    That someone special is probably covered in dust by now :lol::hug: thanks.
     
  6. Messy Marj

    Messy Marj LPA Addicted VIP LPA Addicted VIP

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    Maliiiiiii, here's a very special hug!

    :hug:

    I know they all look the same, but if it was for real, you'd never want something else than Teh Marjy Hug!
     
  7. Linja

    Linja Good. Be magnanimous. Über Member

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    :hug: Teh Marjy Hug! It really makes me feel all cozy and bubbly inside like a glass of champagne.
     
  8. Messy Marj

    Messy Marj LPA Addicted VIP LPA Addicted VIP

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    That sounds like a bad advert somehow. :lol:
     
  9. Linja

    Linja Good. Be magnanimous. Über Member

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    I know. But it's true! :lol::hug:
     
  10. Messy Marj

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    :hug:

    Then it's all alright. :lol:
     
  11. Christopher

    Christopher Über Member Über Member

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    Oh, Mali, I think everyone on here's having or had that problem at least once, but you'll get through it. :hug:

    Not as much of a hug as Marj's, but it still counts as one, right? :lol:
     
  12. Linja

    Linja Good. Be magnanimous. Über Member

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    I sure hope so. :hug: It counts as a wonderful Christophebabe hug.
     
  13. Louis

    Louis Message me if you need to talk. We love you all. LPA Team

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    It's kind of sad, really, how Alex leaving for Europe drove me to the point of tears.

    I don't know what got over me that night. Perhaps, I just didn't want her to leave. Maybe it was the fact that I wouldn't see her for 5 weeks. Maybe it was the fact that she's going to be spending 2 weeks in Europe, with Nick, and without me. Perhaps it was the fact that her being gone leaves me with one less person to make plans with before I go to Cyprus. Or perhaps, it was just because my feelings, after 9 and a half months, have finally gotten the best of me and overwhelmed me to the point of tears.

    I think it's just about everything.

    That concert upset me. It was the last time that I got to actually see Alex in person, as well as Rachel. Not to mention, Nick had a solo (which was really good, he has a great voice) which, I would think, make Alex like him more. Maybe that's just me. Maybe I'm just setting up scenarios for me to be upset about. It was still a depressing evening. I didn't want her to go. I didn't want her to want him. I wanted her.

    The morning that the band and choir were leaving for Europe, I woke up at 5. That's the earliest I've woken up this entire summer. I was filled with anxiety. I was filled with denial. I didn't want to accept it. She was leaving. She would be gone for 2 weeks before she returned here. I wouldn't see her for 5 weeks. I wouldn't even get to see her at Band Camp. Not even at Band Camp.

    I got over it relatively quickly, but it still saddens me from time to time that I'm not going to see her for a good deal of time. This has been our biggest time of separation since Christmas Break. It's tough. It's painful.

    Although, it made me realize how much I really love her.

    It's odd, how I feel foolish when I say that I love her. It just seems to be that way, though. Infatuation doesn't last 9 to 10 months, does it? Infatuation doesn't last over times of separation? Infatuation doesn't make you cry, does it?

    I really wouldn't think so.

    Perhaps I'm just tricking myself. Maybe I'm just pushing myself to believe that this person is above everyone else, and that I should have these "feelings" for her to receive sympathy.

    But I love her.

    The night before she left, I had a 45 minute conversation with her over the phone. It was nice. The next morning, I called Rachel at 6 to wish her one last farewell.

    I don't need this girl. I want this girl. She brings out the best in me. She's everything I want right now. I could forget wanting a better computer, or an X-Box 360 or a Nintendo Wii. I could forget that. Only if I had her, though. Only if I could hold her in my arms.

    If only, if only.
     
  14. Daniel

    Daniel Run for your life. LPA Super Member

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    I NEED to talk to her >_<
     
  15. Tomi

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    Okay, so maybe I've overdone it.
     
  16. Dr. Faust

    Dr. Faust "Your Epitaph Will Be A Barcode"

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    Why are all my friends homophobic assholes?
     
  17. Viper62

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    ow yeah thats anoying, Im not gay but some good friends of mine are, are I hate it when people talk bad about them
     
  18. Roubin

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    Yeah, people at school discriminate for sexual orientation, for the sports people play, for the body they might have, etc.

    Example: some people critizized me because I listen to female voices like Amy Lee, and other female singers, and critizized me because they think I can't play almost no sports, which is false, though I don't play sports at school, I play outside there, I watch competitions on TV, etc.; and because of that things people think I am bisexual. I am sick of discrimination.
     
  19. Black Orchid

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    i hate him!
     
  20. Urantia Girl

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    Someone accused me of lying, and now we aren't friends anymore.
     
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