Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

I'd never do anything with her, I just think it's weird that I think she's attractive, I think.

 

Yeah okay, I think I see your point. It isn't that weird, then.

 

I'm actually pretty happy right now. I hope this works.

 

Whatcha' not doing and are doing?

 

I am officially a douchebag. SAY SOMETHING TO HER YOU DUMB SHIT.

 

Mike: Good.

Daniel: you're not a douche...you just don't want her to reject you (I dunno why she would, if she had any smarts) because it would just mess everything up for you guys. I think it's worth giving it a shot...you guys seem so close I think she might be interested in more than friendship. You can do it babe!

 

I'd say two nights in a row of fun in the car and a third tonight of just hanging out at my house would add up to me being pretty happy.

 

Yeah that's pretty much it. Maybe I'll rehearse what I want to say before we hang out next time. Thanks, though.


Mike: that's good to hear, man.

 

Thanks.

I just know that once everyone finds out that I'm gonna recieve some backlash. But, I don't care. She's awesome.

 

My brother acts like such an asshole sometimes. I mean, really now?

 

I know. Thats pretty much all brothers do a reasonable amount of the time in my experience.

 

Around this time last year:

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My former office. I miss it so much. All of it, except three people who made my life a living hell there. No wonder I'm not in the mood for Christmas because last year I had it all and now I currently have nothing. Thank you job security and douchebag assholes! Nice to know I can count on you! Not. Oh yes, I'm STILL bitter.

I want my old job back. I want my happiness back. I want my purpose in life back. I would rather have all of that than material things this Christmas.

 

Daniel: Yeah, give that a try. Could help to make you more confident.

Mike: Two nights of fun in your car? Sounds intriguing...
And ya know what, the age difference isn't weird. I'm 16 and Josh turned 21, and you're 21 and she's 17. You're fiiiine.

 

I know. I told my mom and the age was the biggest issue for her, but I told her to shush because the game has changed. It's not how it used to be, we're both old enough. And to be honest, you were the first one I thought of when I questioned the age to myself, and then I said fuck it. I gave up way too many other opprotunities, I wasn't about to blow this one off.

And then there was 6 hours of fun in my room, and nothing major happened. I love that.

 

As a trial basis, I'm going to see if I can go a week without telling people I love them when I don't mean it.

It's Christmas so it'll be quite a saga, but I think I can do it.

 

You're 16??? Whoa...

I did not know that.

 

I didn't remember exactly either. I mean, I probably was told at some point. Sorry Arlene. I guess it's easy to forget considering how mature you are, and you do look a year or two older. Plus I'm an idiot. I'd put another tongue thing here but I'm trying to cut down. And again here.

 

My ex teacher contacted me on facebook.



The thing is, I have no recollection of her :/

 

So yeah, I got tickets to see The Killers in January for Christmas and my brother is mad that I'm going. Made a scene too. I'll never understand him. He is so selfish and always gets what he wants and if he only knew what I've been through this year he would've not acted like such an idiot and took the fun out of that gift. Why couldn't he just be happy for me? I don't know why he's so mad. He's going to the concert too with his girlfriend. It's like he thinks I don't deserve to go. Whatever.

I want the holidays to be over.

 

It appears I have "selective pathological liar-itis". :I'd find it funny, if it didn't make me feel so awful.