I dont always Linkin Park

I don't always eat jellyfish, but when I do it goes like this.

 

I don't always break, but when I do, It's a part of my heart so I can find release.

 

I don't always see coke heads doing my lines, but when I do they are decorated like Christmas pines.

 

I don't always chin check kids, but when I do, it's to make my point like an impressionist

 

I don't always fill my cup, but when I do, it's with the rising of the sea.

 

I'm not always pulling my weapon to my side, but when I do, I'm loading it full of my goodbyes.

 

I can't always remember all the sadness and frustration, but when I can, I let it go.

 

You don't always lift me up, but when you do, you let me go.

 

I don't always point my finger, but when I do, there is no one else to blame.

 

I don't always count how many lettaz ther are in the alphabet, but when I do it took me all day.

 

I don't always try so hard and get so far, but when I do, it doesn't even matter.

 

I do not always ride with a head full of buckets of red, but when I do, it's usually stuck in my head.

 

The Aztec moon doesn't always heat my room, but when it does it heals my wounds.

 

I don't always do the Ernie or the Bert, but when I do, I shake my milky chocolate shirt.

 

I'm not always on the sidewalk for 2 weeks, but when i am, it's so i can get an autogram.

 

I don't always make that bed, but when I do, I lay in that bed

 

I don't always have wounds, but when I do, they will not heal.

 

I never got this.

''Soon, the Aztec moon will heat my room, heal my wounds.''

What does that mean?

 

I don't always know what I've got,but when I do,it's gone and I scream it twelve times in a row.