Thank you guys so much, this means a lot. One of the most amazing things this band has given me is all of you. We're indeed a big and beautiful family. Thank you for helping me every single day, and I'm always here for you as well :') <3
You had your own memorial. Chester would have been proud of you for finding a way you could pay your respects without being too uncomfortable to appreciate the experience
Some years ago , I wanted my life to end, my mum was deadly ill..., but Chester showed me a different way. I am so sad... I wish I could say him how much he helped me to go through this time...
It's weird how one song can give you back this strange feeling in your chest. Now I know that I somehow can't listen to Final Masquerade. Too early I guess, too f****** early. How r u doing?
I couldn't help it today and listened to the "rolling in the deep" cover .... and started crying again ... :`( It's still soooo painful
In general, I feel better. But whenever I hear songs from LP I have to cry or feel shitty. Thanks to Chester & LP & the Community what they have done for the soldiers and do now.
I went down the rabbit hole of videos last night on YouTube and came across the Jimmy Kimmel performance and the crawling one with Chris....that made me teary eyed and then I felt e exhausted and went to sleep. We are having something for him next month in vegas.
I got his name inked today, now he's always there... He was there before as well but I needed to do this.
I thought it'd get easier with time but with all the other stuff happening on top of Chester's death my mood swings are terrible and I feel like it was yesterday. I really need a break.
Give yourself time to heal and take a break if you need to. We all relapse and we all get flashbacks but I'm sure one day it will get easier. You will get through it. We're always here to talk.
I know but it's hard to take a break when life throws curve balls all the time and don't have time to take care of myself. Besides, it's not like I can tell my parents what's bothering me, Chester was just a stupid rock star for them and my mum thinks going to psychologist is shameful. Maybe a memorial will bring some peace and closure. I can't believe what I'm about to say but I can't wait for autumn to come, start working again and live on my own again
I do understand that. My mom doesn't get it neither. At first it was hurtful that she thought like that but then I realized that it doesn't matter what anybody else is thinking. I have the thread, one or two good online friends I always can come to talk... Our mom's thoughts doesn't mean that our feelings aren't valid. I somewhere heard that life only throws at us what we can handle. Believe that this is true. Better days are coming, we're here and you'll get stronger at the end.
It's the oddest feeling missing someone so much who never even knew me. And feeling like a part of me died with him. I love LP's music so much, especially their older albums. Will I ever be able to listen again and enjoy it? Because I haven't been able to since his death. It brings up way too much sadness. If this tragedy takes away my ability to enjoy my favorite music, that is seriously tragic.
The song I am having a hard time listening to is lost in the echo....i always have that one repeat but for some reason now that song just hits close home.