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Thats sad,but I can relate to all of that. :hugz: [/b][/quote]
thanks....and i'm already starting thinking i'm really paranoid...i'm always controlling my feelings and my behaviour...i'm always afraid to get into a mess...so i think i'm too quite for my friends and my schoolmates...they better have to spend their time with someone else...

 

i really want to cut myself, i really dont know if i can stop, however much i try, because when i dont cut i feel like crap for not cutting, which is bad. why do i have to feel bad for something im aparently "doing right" for once

and another thing, i have a crush on my friends 18 year old boyfriend, i cant help myself. he's so kind to me and he listens to me, but she is going out with him. and he liked me at one point, and i didnt realise i hate myself for that.

 

:hugz: why you should feel a crap for not cutting yourself? :wth:
i didn't get why if someone is depressed and stuff, has then to hurts himself... i'd rather put an end to my life...it would be less painfull and sad.....i think....

 

I've had 3 people around me in my life commit suicide,2 of which were good friends of mine,beleive me,its not the answer.The feeling you get seeing your friend being buried,knowing you will never see them again,its undiscribably unpleasent.And I've wanted to end my life aswell,but i just keep on thinking about all the things I'd miss,so I can never find the courage to even attempt it.Its certainly the persons choice to do so but the impacts on everyone around you is heartbreaking.

 

I'm dyslexic.


I HATE IT.

 

I think I'm dyslexic too but I dont know if I am officially. Its just that I am ridiculously bad at calculation things in my head and orginizing numbers...it has to be some kind of condition.

 

Yeah. It's not official for me either, but sometimes I read numbers and letters backwards and then I get confused. It really sucks since I go to such a competitive university.

 

I have a crush on Leslie.

 

I don't want to get in between you and Sam.

 

goddamnit i am not bi-sexual kind sir!

 

I'm not claiming you to be! I know you're gay. :hugz:






:chemist:

 

I shall kill you with this stick!

 

LMAO

 

You guys.. this is SERIOUS chat.

 

This is serious chat, damnit.

He thinks I'm a homosexual! I must deflect this rumour off of my Shield Of Heterosexuality.

I challenge Tempest to a dual.

 

:hugz: why you should feel a crap for not cutting yourself? :wth:
i didn't get why if someone is depressed and stuff, has then to hurts himself... i'd rather put an end to my life...it would be less painfull and sad.....i think.... [/b][/quote]
because its an addiction, if i dont do it for ages i become more and more sad, its strange.

:hugz:

edit: oh, and leslie and goso8, dont worry, im the only one of my dads kids who isnt (he has 4 kids), and he's dyslexic too, my dad is a clever person, and my older bro and sis are at college and uni. dont let it stop you!

goso: i would reccommend you get a dyslexia test. my brother is going for one in october. (the only reason we are doing this is because he doesnt recieve help at school and if he is proved dyslexic, he will get this help. in the meantime the school refuse to give him any help, when he is clearly struggling :angry: )it costs about £250, but this girl he is going to see is a specialist, and if it isnt dyslexia she will be able to tell us what it is. if he isnt then its £250 well spent anyway!

 

I want to hear the words "You're my bestfriend" from my friend.

 

oh, and today "someone" reminded me that i can't stand people who ruin your stuff....arghhh!! why she had to cut my book?!i think that in those moments, i'd like to slap her... :chemist:
























i'm pathetic.... i know...

 

I used to cut myself. I have.. a couple times still when I was angry. But mainly I have tried to stop.

 

me too, but my mind keeps taking me over and making me cut .


have you ever had that?