Got Something You Want To Let Out?

my parents annoy me a lot because one second, I'm the greatest person on earth to them, but then I do one stupid thing of little relevence, and all hell breaks loose

so freaking annoying, because it's almost like no matter what I do, I'm not "perfect"

 

I don't think I want to get involved with love. It'll probably get fuekd up.

 

There are 3 light switches next to the entrance door in my apartment. After 2 years of living here, I still have no idea which one turns on which light.

 

I don't think I've ever felt more pressured than I do now. And with everyone telling me every step that I should take, I just want to ARGHH!

 

I feel the exact same way!
that i why i never attach myself to anything. ive almost (and probly will) lose friends because of it.....but i cant really help it.......i hate to be hurt and would rather not let myself

I really dont understand faith.....i couldnt do it if i wanted to...

 

that's enough...my parents are fighting almost everyday...I hate this...fuck... :angry:

 

Angie's your ex.... right?

 

Alex asked me if I thought monogamy was lame, so I said it depends on how you look at it. And then she asked me if she could be friends with my girlfriend, and that if anything developed, would I give my consent. It was late at night so I didn't say anything, I made sure I was sitting on the fence on this matter, even when I sobered up.


It was only until the next morning and realized what she really meant by that.


She wanted to get with my girlfriend. [esther]


Esther is in vancouver for a month visiting her relatives so I don't think she knows. I fell asleep at 5am and woke up at 5pm [didn't sleep on thursday at all] and esther was online, so for the first time in ages I talked to her.

Then Alex came on and I said "Esther's online ^^" and she said "Yes, i know, I spoke to her just now". Esther thought I was mad at her for some reason [that she didn't send me emails for a week? ]


I have the sneaking suspicion Alex said some stuff to Esther.


I didn't say yes to it at first because like Razan said, I would be letting her down. Like trading a commodity. It was just not right.


Not right at all.



Somebody help, I don't know what to do. Is this right or wrong?

 

Angie's your ex.... right? [/b][/quote]
Was my ex We talked things out.

Truth be told, I don't think she meant no harm.

 

Was my ex We talked things out.

Truth be told, I don't think she meant no harm. [/b][/quote]
sweet

 

Yes, I want to let something out. I am frustrated today.

 

sweet [/b][/quote]
I say

Whenever someone gives you a Mariah Carey song, you know they mean business

 

Hello guys.. I am new here!

My confessions:

Fake life with fake friends,Seems like nobody cares about me..as though I didnt exist.

My girlfriend left me 4 weeks ago suddenly when I need her the most..

I become a changed person whenI listen Linkin Park music.I related to my life, screwed up and so alone..

I have a slight Split personality.

I am a weird person..I don't talk much,and I think A LOT..which make me paronoid about stuff..


More soon..

 

:hugz: hugs

 

Yesss. Things I wanna let out -

* I'm cofused about what I want.
* I dig Fall Out Boy.
* I'm practically always jealous.
* I think I might be mental.
* I used to be blonde.
* I have a nack for being annoying.
* I want to hurt people,mentally.
* When I feel,that people get too close to me,I ditch them.
* I hate people who love me.
* I have a severe case of Paranoia.
* I love to look intimidating.

Ehh... :chemist:

 

today i took my parents place as they were being really childish and kept trying to pick fights with me and my brother and i had to tell them to shut the hell up. i also think there is something wrong with me mentaly, and i have suddenly become a lot more serious and i don't understand it. also the only thing i live for is the hope that one day i will get to go to war. its really disturbing. also right now i have the memory of a goldfish that's continuasly living the morning after. i cant remember shit. i can remember years ago but not 5 minutes ago, or 5 weeks ago, or a lot of stuff for that matter, i just go by what people tell me and what i think.

 

I will forever love you for that.

 

bunch of stuff to get off my chest...

i feel dead on the inside. i can't feel at all. i just started going out with someone, and i feel bad. i wanted to make him happy so i said yes, but i feel so numb i dont think i can even like him like that. im so cold to people who want to get close to me, i can't help it. i don't understand. i just want to push them away.

im screwing everything up. i dont want to hurt people but i am. im messing things up with my best guy friend cuz i chose this guy over him (he wanted to go out with me too), and im going to end up hurting my bf cuz i feel like i don't even want a relationship and i cant feel that way towards him. my heart is dead or something.

i want my parents to get a divorce, they hate each other and fight everyday and drive each other insane. but they wont split up because of me and my brother. its fucked up. i tell them not to worry about us but they still wont do it. im worried about my dad, he is becoming an alcoholic because of all the shit with my mom. i found cocaine in his room too. and my mom cheated on my dad. its so obvious they should not be together but they wont get a fucking divorce.

i look at my life now and nothing is the way it should be. i see what its changing into and i hate it. everything is wrong.

 

that sounds so sad...poor you. is there anyone you can talk to?

i think you need loads of big hugs :hugz:

 

:hugz: