Got Something You Want To Let Out?

I recently broke up with my girlfriend...This is because she makes me feel a little...i guess you could say...useless and not good enough. Strange though, how we're still talking, I still love her so much...and I'm aching to hold her tight in my arms again. I can also see it in her too...we've even said that we missed eachother, but I don't know if I should actaully try to get back togehter with her. She refered to me as somebody who treats their own girlfriend like shit, and I spoke to my closest friends about it, hell, theyre not into men, but they all agreed that I was not a "bad" boyfriend. I've done so much for her....and I think I've been left unappreciated, she said to me that I often take her for granted, but i don't think so. I mean, who the fuck would sneak over to their girlfrien'ds house ....lays under the bed for like...3 to 4 hours sometimes.....trust me...it feels like youre life is beign wasted under there...and comes out feelin all cheery and happy. I don't know...but I know alot of people who wouldn't tolerate that very well.. I'm so lost right now. I don't want to be a burden to her ...and I don't want to interfere with her life, I want to see if her life would be better without me as a boyfriend. But at the same time I want to get back together with her so bad. We;ve been together for two years....two years....I can't really let that just go like that...I just need some opinions...or maybe some advice from you fellow lpassociation forum members...it would mean alot, and it would be greatly appreciated.

 

i'm in science. it's hard but it's worth it.

Matt:What Friskey said. she'd doin it to burn you up. frustrated ladies do that sometimes. let it slip and get a better grip on yourself. if you feel hurt when she does these things to you then you have every right to do what she does... and see if there is any change in her behaviour. if she acts more insecure and touchy, then you are doing great, mate!
go flirt, go join, go belong, go kick some arse and show her who is boss!

 

Hmmm I wanna be a teacher. I can see myself teaching science, but I wanna major in Philosophy. People are saying do the one I love, that is PHILOSOPHY! But I wanna teach and freak out about the thought of teaching philosophy. Hmmmm maybe I'll do a double degree or a triple major....

ARGGGGHHHHHHH!!!

 

Well...um...I don't think I'd want to do that. He's like a head taller than me and captain of the wrestling team...and I'm in his band...

 

Get both science and philosophy. If one doesn't work out, do the other. Don't freak out either! I mean, if you can face a bunch of sometimes very loud and rowdy kids, you can face anything, right?

I want to teach German

 

My life just got less boring.

I think I might be in love.

 

Well, everyone has a bad day, but that sounds like total overkill. I know exactly how you feel about all of those things. The day after I broke up with my girlfriend was pretty similar. Whatever you do, you need to totally block out thoughts of suicide. I used to think about it a lot, and the next thing I knew, I had a knife to my wrist. Of course, I stopped right before I slit it, but that momentary "What the hell am I doing?" state made me come to my senses. When those thoughts come to mind, think about all you have and could be leaving behind. It just may save you.

 

Well if I look at it in that regard then yes I suppose I can face anything. But I haven't been there yet. I'm doing my preferences now, putting down a double degree. Hope all works out. And good luck to you and your dream of teaching german. Who knows, maybe one day our paths might cross.

Thanks

 

Today was going fine until I came home from school.

I was told that my nana died today.

It didn't hit me immediately. I went about my day. It hit me when I got into the shower. I basically, literally crumpled into a heap in the shower and started crying hysterically for about an hour.

You see, I hadn't seen her in a very long time. She and my father sort of had a falling-out. I missed her so much and I always told myself I'd go see her once I could drive myself so that I could make things right. Obviously, that never happened.

I never got the chance to settle anything.

I never even got to say goodbye.

 

That makes me sad, though my old grandpa died of lung cancer 8 years ago. He had been forced (litterally) into smoking, and he even could have been killed if he didn't smoke. that's some heavy peer pressure.

I'm making myself too sad.

 

I know exactly how you feel. I just lost two great-uncles in less than five days. It was a particular shock, because the news of the first one came while I was at work. The second one I found out about while I was flying (not good if I have to control something going very fast when I feel like I just got hit by a car)...

 

Wow...apparently I just found out that Angie has slept with her new boyfriend and they've been going out for 3 and a half months. I cared and loved her for 11 months and this happens?

Cunt.

 

What is she supposed to do, not sleep with someone because you two dated once?

Go out and get laid.

 

what happens when you want to move on but your heart won't let you?



michael's mom called me and decided that she was paying my cell phone bill for january cuz i can't afford it. she won't take money back. she is helping me like mad, and this was before she even knew everything that was going on with him. i feel really bad. why is she doing this? and what is going to happen when he finds out....he is gonna blame me, i know it. grr.

 

It'll be like a sex duel.

Kind of like on MTV's hit reality show The Real World.


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A "counseling" session with Leonie:

 

At least that isn't as bad as what my friend had to go through. He was with his gf for almost two years. She went out and fucked some guy while they were still going out, told him, left him, got pregnant, had a still-birth, then came crawling back to him after telling him all of these HORRIBLE and mean things and telling him to never talk to her again. Now, she is talking to him just to tell him that she is happier than ever and is engaged to this person she has been going out with for like a month.

Also, 3 and a half months is a long time, sure, not as long as 11 months, but she's older now and maybe the guys wasn't a virgin and kinda pushed it. When you're in that situation it's hard to say no.

 

This is such a negative thread.

Not to lessen the effect of all your problems and stuff. But you know. It is.

 

negativity makes the world go round...

 

In kinder i fed play-doh to a fish and it dies. sooo sad *cough cough*