It's important to understand that grief can affect everyone - even those who are mental health professionals and those who are very strong-willed. After all, we are human. I'm glad you are getting help. Be strong, and we will all overcome together. We are here for you! I would not recommend listening to that, especially at this time. Audio and imagery replay in the mind like nothing else, which can exacerbate the grieving process. If you really want to, nobody can stop you, but I think folks are better off ignoring it.