Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

It makes sense.

I really don't have much advice, except for that if you persevere with you, she'll notice eventually. Not many people now days love people for who they are, so if you do, then that will be an outstanding quality to her that she'll find extraordinary.

 

I love you..

 

Ooh ooh! Awesome!

 

You know I'm really glad.


I love my siblings.

 

i wonder why my expectations are unrealisticly high on the random occurences

 

BUTTERFLIES IN TUMMY, I SHALL MURDER YOU.

 

Ooh, yes, for sure. I've known it for a while, but just like, if you stop and think about it, it's like, 'shit how am i so lucky?!"

 

Love, It use to mean something, but now I find that it's a word said just to fill up an empty gap when something feels like it needs to be said. I mean I believe in love and I believe that there is a person for everyone just I don't think that I will ever find that person for me. Life is really hard right now, and I don't perdict it getting any better in the near future. I want love that isn't instantly replaceable, and someone to talk to-share thoughts and secrects with that I can't with anyone else. I really really really want that. I've thought about suicide before, and turning 20 on the 16 made me more depressed. It's like I'm going through a mid-life crisis at 20, I know it's stupid but I just can't seem to help it and I don't know how to calm myself down.

 

Now now, it'll be okay. You'll find someone very special, you just have to wait and the right person comes along.

 

Maybe, I'm getting tired of looking though.

 

It's when you're not looking that things come around.

 

Took the words right out of my mouth.

 

Maybe, but I've become so anti-social now a days that it just doesn't seem likley. I mean, I know I should get out but more and more I see people that are just idiots, I don't like to be around ignorance so I stay home alot. Also I'm very pessimistic which isn't a very attractible attribute.

 

Do you have some friends? Maybe some siblings?

 

I have some friends, but they are becoming jackass's. Whom both blew me off to go to another persons birtday party on my birthday on the 16th. And get this, they didn't know the person who's birthday it was. Siblings, I have four sisters and three brothers, we don't get along so well.

 

Hmm, well maybe you could try to go out somewhere with one of your brothers? Or do you really dislike them that much?

 

I don't dislike them, it's that we are just too differnt. I've tried to hang out with them but it just doesnt seem to go very well. If it's not one thing it's the other, just too differernt interest, I guess it's worth another shot though.
Edit:
Sorry I know it must seem that I complain too much, I appologize for that.

 

Yeah you should. Just go out in a busy public spot with alot of nice people, just forget about your anti-social character and go wild for one night. Meet nice people, get some phonenumbers, just go crazy, you won't regret it. You might think that's not something you would easily do, but if you would just let yourself go and have fun, you'll end up somewhere, I'm sure.

Don't apologize, this thread is for expressing your feelings.