Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

I'm 20.. i hate being 20. I need someone to blame. lol

 

Blame the industry, blame Bush, blame zhe Germans

 

What about blame you? No, I'm joking I'll blame High School Principles

 

That's not true. One of my best friends (not so much anymore) was an alcoholic by the time he was 17.

 

Yeah, shouldve said that it is not impossible to be an alcoholic under the age of 20

 

Ok ok ok, if you can and are legal age....GET DRUNK!

 

Well, you can see why he's not my friend anymore.

 

Yep Gotta love some beer and alcohol but not too much

 

Few things in this world are more liberating then telling someone to go fuck themselves. Time to burn some bridges... and I won't feel bad about it.

 

I dunno what it is but there's been a feeling inside of me that just makes me wanna leave here and start a new life in California or something. I'm just tired of the same old scene I guess. The thing is that I'm 17 now and I realise that I'm growing up but there's a part of me that just doesn't want to. I just wanna go places with friends, play football and video games, go to parties and get laid...and I can't see that changing at all which kinda makes me scared that I'll never mature into a proper adult. I'm told I'm very mature for my age but the fact is that I don't wanna be. I just wanna be young and stupid and take full advantage of the fact that I'm still a kid. I'm nearly 18 and although I should be excited about having much more freedom...I'm not.

I guess this is all getting to me because up until around 14 I wasn't a very sociable person and thus didn't have as many great childhood experiences as others. It's almost like a quarter-life crisis.

 

Beers, please

Mental note: I owe you a beer in return for the hug. Might be a year or two before you can collect though

 

Ha, yeah, a 'year or 2'.

*hands beer*

 

God, I don't want to be depressed cos it's my birthday...

But it's another year, and the only things I'm gonna remember are th LP and Silverchair concerts.
This feels like 16 years of wasted time.


And for some reason I have My December on repeat.

 

mmmm, beeeeeeer

 

She finally admitted she's in love with me. Oh, my God.

 

Wow, Will, that's amazing. All the best to you. <3

 

Damn, that's awesome man. Big congrats to you

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*Fingers crossed she says the same*

 

Nevermind.

 

Child dry your tears
Child dry your tears
Life is short, you only last so much years
So overcome the fears you have
Do everything you believe is right
Life's a ride, so hold on tight
And never get off.

I wrote this a couple days ago to cheer myself up. But it's just total crap. Like my life.

 

**sigh** dammit I don't think I'll be slow dancing at tomorrows "Snow Ball" at our High School tomorrow if She just pushes me away like she is.