Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

They canceled the show! I almost lost it when they told us she won't perform tonight and MAY BE she'll sing on Tuesday.

 

*Looooooooooooooong sigh*

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*Biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig hug*

 

Well I can't say I didn't exactly see this coming

 

So my stay with my boyfriend was fine until the last minute, suddenly within the last hour he was done and didn't seem like himself. I asked him if anything was wrong or if anything was bothering him; he said yes but said that he didn't want to say anything because it would cause hassle. I told him that if he could not confide with me his girlfriend, who could he confide in? He eventually said that he was bothered about a few things that happened today. I was with him all day so I have basically come to the conclusion that it has something to do with what I may have done today. I am absolutely baffled and confused.

Why can't he just tell me?? Or is it a guy rule that you you can;t be open with your feelings??

*sigh*

I apologise for the long post.

 

Guys can be like that sometimes..kinda secretive, and can get bitchy like girls do. Hopefully he just didn't sleep well or something and it'll blow over soon.

 

Thanks

 

*sigh* So pretty much I'm an ass hole.

I have a boyfriend currently, who's my age [which is weird for me, I usually date older guys] but it was working out and everything during school. But now it's summer vacation...and I haven't seen him once yet, and the way my parents are I can't just go out whenever I feel like it. But 2 times me and him had plans, and then last minute he had some other obligation, I mean, he had good reasons, but still. It's not easy for my parents to agree..and when they finally do he can't go. Very frustrating.

So now, starting a few weeks ago, I work weekends. And last year I had this huuuge thing for the guy Josh I work with. And apparently I still have a thing for him..and he does as well for me. On Sunday at work we were talking about it and stuff and flirting ('cause I'm a huuuge flirt) and then we ended up kissing. Ugh. What.the.hell. I have a goddamned boyfriend. I feel like such a bitch.

Plus, Korey (my boyfriend) is constantly on vacation, so I can't talk to him...And plus he's totally in love with me...and I truly don't love him, not being cold hearted or anything, but I just don't. So yeah, the solution is so simple, just break up with him, tell him that I just don't care about him as much as he does me and that it's not working out not seeing him. But of course, right now his parents are in the middle of a divorce, and he doesn't have any siblings or anything. So pretty much I'm all he has, and he told me that a few weeks back...*major headdesk*

And I just feel like I'm leading him on..because he says "I love you" to me and I just say it back because I feel obligated to..which makes me feel even more like a bitch. Gosh this is terrible.

 

I'm so sorry hun, I'll try and get on AIM soon, so be on.

That part in the last paragraph sounds unfortunately familiar to me

 

I know how you feel in the same paragraph, these two days was the first time I have seen my boyfriend since college ended and that was almost 3 weeks ago

I am a flirt too, but I am trying to tame it just for him. But you have to be honest with him. It seems that you care for him as a friend at the current moment in time, so tell him that you love him but as a friend and that you will still be there for him to vent out to or for a shoulder to cry on whenever the need arises because I know that divorces can get messy.

Hope that helped a lickle bit

 

Mm thanks Daniel and Miaz. *sigh*

 

@Arlene:

Hun!

... I just know how you feel. I've been pressured so many times by guys with the whole "I love you" subject. That's why I don't say I love you back to a guy if I don't mean it. I know it kinda sounds bitchy but it's better to be homest with them than to start lying to them with something so important/delicate.

Sometimes I wonder if things are getting too serious or going too fast with my boyfriend. I can't predict what's going to happen tomorrow or anything, so sometimes I feel like that. But I know one thing, I love him. Anyways, that's not the point on this post.

Arlene, just be honest with him and things will get better. And do NOT, for any reason, feel like "if I'm the only thing he has and then he loses me, it's all my fault" because you cannot be blamed for what's happening with his parents or how is he feeling. If you know what I'm talking about.

Best advice anyone can give you is: To be honest.
That's all. Trust me, it'll be a lot better if you come clean and tell him what happened than someone else.

.. I hope that kinda made you think things better AND feel better

Arlene<3333

 

Testified (real name is ___?) thanks...a lot. That's what the other 2 friends that i confided in told me to do. I mean, there's no way that he's going to find out about Josh (guy i work with) but I just would feel so so bad for breaking up with him. I mean..its like 50/50..the Josh thing being part of it and the other part is Korey (b/f) never being able to make it when we make plans..it's just like so..goddamn frustrating. And I know that if i break up with him that it's not all my fault that he's miserable..it would just be about 80% of the reason...god this is terrible. I know what i have to do..just freaking tell him about josh, and what i'm thinking about not being able to see him over the summer...but it's just soo hard..i was talking to one of his buddies and he said that yeah he can tell that Korey really has some feelings for me...man..from the beginning i didnt think it would work out but i was like "eh we'll see, neither of us will get really attached and hey maybe it will work out" but he got soo attached. And I feel like a bitch for just saying "i love you" back when i dont..i mean, i really do care about him, he's such a sweetheart and a great guy but love? I don't think love..i mean gimme a break..i'm 15..

Dah..sorry about long rambling post..i just kinda had to get it out. And again..thanks so much for caring and taking the time to respond to my pathetic-er I mean my posts. <3

 

real name?... lets keep it a mystery..

It's Orietta, but you can call me Ori, if you want to. And don't worry, I'm here for you and I understand you

 

In some days I'm going on holidays to my aunt's with my mother, and as I said some pages ago, I wanna live with my aunt from now on. It is the best thing I can do for my sake.

Though I said I won't feel nothing if my mother cries or suicides because of me, now I am more "human" in some way. I mean, now I wanna leave my mother in good and friendly terms, cause I don't wanna hurt her, but I just need to live with my aunt from now on.

 

's tight! I know what you mean about not wanting to live with your mom but not hurting her, I had an issue like that last year. Hopefully your mom would understand why you need to live with your aunt. I'm not sure what I' trying to say, but take a hug.

 

Tkanks for the hug!!! .

My mother knows that I love my aunt's house and city, but not that I wanna live there. She thinks I only love the house and city because of the shops, food, clothes, and other stuff that it's not usual in my actual city. But I'm not "materialist" (sorry if misused the term), I just feel a better atmosphere in that city, and a better influence.

One of the reasons I leave is for my school, cause as I said in previous posts, my partners drink, smoke, fuck, take drugs, etc. Now I'm not blaming them for their life style, like before, but I don't share the same things with them. I don't belong to that school. If they're happy with their life, good for them, but don't try to change me.

 

YESSSS, no history next year! XD

Man, I was under the impression somehow that Computer Science wasn't an approved course for BC uni's, so I thought I would need to take History, as my 3rd approved course. Ahh, next year's going to be actually enjoyable as I actually have 2 spares [i had none this year, such hell!]

*happy*

 

Hm...methinks I need to stop being so goddamn emotional.

 

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