Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

how did Josh take it?

 

Nan's in hospital and her kidneys are only working at 20%. She tripped over a cord and broke her hip and needs hip surgery which will go down this afternoon.

 

He took the break up fine. He doesn't know that I'm with Steve because we haven't talked. He hasn't tried contacting me at all. I mean, he DID message my friend 2 weeks after we broke up asking if I was happy but that's it.

 

The only girl I have any interest in whatsoever just got back together with her ex. Great.

 

He comes home from work and all does is play XBOX and watch TV and all I get is: How come you didn't clean the house? Why didn't you make the bed?
What am I a housewife? A slave? He doesn't cook let alone hang his towel up in the bathroom. Just because work's finished doesn't mean it's the end of the day. I hope he knows I do have a life outside of this house just because I don't work as much as I used to.
Why doesn't he make the bed?
Why doesn't he cook for a change?
Why doesn't he just get off my case and stop classifying me as a housewife?

 

Wtf man, todays fucked, lifes fucked. When i arrived at work this morning i found it weird that the briefing was awfully short and my cheery teamleader was no longer cheery. Then the directrice came in and told us one of our people died last night. It was katja, i still cant believe it, 26 fucking years old, dead. Why? She felt fine in the bus 3hours before it happened. Fuck you death, you always take the good ones away too early.

 

Oh my god that's awful Marj...how did it happen if you don't mind me asking?

Sorry to hear it.

 

I hate my life!

 

I'm so sorry, Marj. That's awful.

Jacob: Aw, what's wrong?

 

I think I finally got a job!

 

My love interest and I got an a huge argument over nothing. Literally over nothing. A little matter of me saying "I'm fine" when I wasnt became a huge mess.I do love this girl with all I have but I cant do it anymore. If she came back we will see what happens..if not then I'm not going to cry over it anymore. I'm hoping for the best and expecting the worse. I gave her back her bracelet and she cut my cross. Thats It I decided. I'm going to become a Monk of Music..no more girls. I cant take this madness anymore. I can't go more then 2 weeks in a relationship without this happening

 

Next time when you're with someone, don't say you're fine when you're not. If you're in a relationship you should confide in that other person, they want you to. That may be why it became a mess, but I'm sure there's more to it.

My advice is don't become a Monk of Music, don't give up the females. You'll find someone who will be with you longer than two weeks eventually, and it'll be great and worth it. Take these relationships as experience to gain knowledge of the other gender and become a better person in the end.

 

Yeah, but sometimes you just want to keep things to yourself, especially if you feel it's trivial.

 

I'm sorry to hear that Jacob. I agree and disagree with Babali about sharing things. As Iain said, sometimes what you might be annoyed about or whatever is really trivial and you don't even wanna say anything, but if it looks like it might turn into something or she's genuinely concerned...just talk about it. Sometimes it's just easier to say what's up. You guys can work it out. Don't let little things get to you. I'm re-learning that myself, right now. Me and my new boyfriend Steve have been together for 3 weeks and I'm finding that I'm letting something eat at me and it's not good. Basically, he smokes pot occasionally with his friends, because that's what they do and he hardly gets to see them anymore. It's not a big deal. A lot of people smoke. But just for some reason I feel it pissing me off way too much and it really shouldn't. Here, I just need to get over it because do I want to fight over something trivial or just accept it and be happy? Choice 2, haha. Besides the smoking he's absolutely...amazing. So yeah. Sometimes you just gotta let little things slide.

 

Ya both of you are right. I mean I now know that I should have maybe told her it bothered me a little bit but Iain is right. I didn't think it was a big deal. I did it to AVOID confrontation. not start it. I hope her and I can fix it. Arlene I know I know. She is an amazing person. like I said I hope things will work out. I love her

 

SORRY FOR THE DOUBLE POST BUT
*Cryptic message alert*
so i sent her a song that ive been listening to all day (No Roads Left) because thats how her and I connect through music
and she sent the following

Then she quickly signed out
What does this mean?
does she want me to just know what she means?
does she want me to be better?
does she want me to wait to talk to her after school tommorow?
I need to know. because I will probably end up waiting for her to see
I really really want to fix this!
any females in the house that can help me translate
I need to know!

 

^ Maybe if you wait for a couple of days and then talk to her again, and ask what that was about on MSN, maybe that'll give her time to think on what she meant by that (and you at the same time) and what she wants to do, because by the sounds of it she wants to be the one in control of the relationship. I don't know Jacob, even being female, some females confuse me a lot sometimes.

Me? I had the worst sleep last night. Couldn't get comfortable even with a pillow in between my legs, bub was moving around and wouldn't go to sleep, last night was worst ever she had been with me. Then when I was comfortable, I had to go to the bathroom and fill up a drink bottle of water because I felt a headache coming on. I was rather pissed at Ben last night for the raciest comments he was coming out with concerning aboriginals and muslims. I won't repeat them here because it would be breaking LPA rules and.. what if my daughter gets a friend who's a muslim or an aboriginal? What is he going to be like? I hate his racism and I don't want my daughter being influenced by such a thing.