Discussion in 'Serious Chat' started by Mechanical Christ, Aug 25, 2004.
I'm so so sorry to hear that Anya...I hope you'll feel okay in a while, and we're all here, if you want to talk.
i feel like nothing matters anymore, i don't want to study or anything
I just want to sleep,eat and watch Basketball all day long.
I've been so unlucky with girls that i don't know what to do anymore.
Don't be too saadd Anya
Baby. I'm so sorry.
She said it all.
. So sorry, dear.
Anya: I can't imagine how it must feel to lose someone that close, and I am very sorry for you. I hope things start looking up.
Anyway, this is my first post on this thread...
I've been going out with this girl for almost 10 months, and she is very much in love with me. To the point of wanting to move in together and such. She treats me very nicely. She does pretty much anything I ask of her. I am only 20 and she is 22. I'm not ready for a serious relationship yet, and besides that we are not meant for each other. My friends and I know it's true. She is boring and doesn't like any fun stuff I do. Also, she talks like a man from the 1940's and every other word out of her mouth is a cliche, which I absolutely cannot stand.
I feel bad for her because she just lost her grandfather and her uncle might be next, so I don't want to hurt her. I'm the type of guy that would be miserable for the rest of my life just to make someone else happy. I do like her friends and family, though. I don't even know if I love her or not. I've only been in love once, and I still have many feelings for that girl.
PS-since people were listing problems, I believe I will do the same
I think I have a split personality. Sometimes I am like I described above, other times I don't give a shit about anyone or their feelings (my gf included)
Actually that last part puts sense in alot of other things I was about to type here. I honestly think part of me is the nicest guy ever, and another part is a suicidal sociopath with no regard whatsoever for other peoples' feelings or my own well being.
A few days back, before the name of the single was revealed, I had a dream where I saw LP having a discussion about the new single
I had a dream where Chester and Mike came into the basement of my old house, where I was on the computer and Chester gave me singing tips and took me on tour with them lololol
Ok, more serious confessions.
I've always talked badly about cutting, but last month, after getting my 5th traffic ticket in 3 months I cut across my left wrist twice and wear my LP wristband over it all the time to cover the scars.
Oh yea, and is it considered bicurious or anything if you have man crushes on certain celebrities, but have no desire whatsoever to even kiss a guy?
Oh yea (again lol) the girl I'm in love with is 15. I'm and 5 years and 17 days older than her. Genuinely in love with, not in a sick pedo kinda way, either.
More ' My job sucks and I feel if I don't make it into a band I will end my life. And I don' even know if I can sing very well or not.
Oh my god Anya. I'm so sorry.
Sorry for what happened Anya...Wish we could do somthing for ya,
Anya, I'm really sorry for your loss. I really don't know what else to say...just that...we're here for you.
I'm so sorry, Anya. Like JD said, we're here for you.
I don't even feel like your girlfriend sometimes. I feel like your ignorant, fuck-up of a little sister who your parents asked you to watch.
I love you, but I'm not your scapegoat, I'm not the one you should blame when you can't find anyone else.
I don't want to feel like your baggage.
I never drink to get drunk. I'm afraid to find out how I'm like.
In any case, I think I'm drnk.
Dance assesment tomorrow, and once thats over, that'll be it. She won't even have to look at me.
Not that she does now, won't meet my eyes.
Dammit, as if i did something wrong, shes the one who lied and said she had feelings for me as well. Dammit, I love and hate her at the same time, and after tomorrow, thats it, chances are I'll never be close to her again.
And my aunt is dying tonight, man, its one after the other, I can't take this anymore, some time to heal would be nice, I can't stop thinking about the fear in my ma's eyes when she was in that hospital, and now I have to go back there for the 5th relative/friend this year. Faaarrrk
So sorry to hear that dude. I feel for ya. Things went....very south between me and that private school girl I'd been talking about. It's a page or two back in this very thread
But seriously, I hope things do start to look up for you soon
you have all the support of the board
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