yup. always. i know i have a problem it is like an addiction, it used to be that i would get like that when something happened and i would think, hey well whatever i'll kill myself and not have to deal with it. now it happens all the time, it creeps up on me and...cripples me. there is no other way to put it. i am dead serious. last time it happened was yesterday and i just fell apart and wanted to die. i know i need help, but i have no insurance and i can't afford it. honestly i don't know what to do. every day is a battle to see if i will make it through the day.
oh yes. When I was 3-6 years old. ...also 16-18. my dad is horrible, and has always been horrible. I don't feel like that anymore. But sometimes I feel as if I would rather die than fail.
the funny thing is that i'm scared of death. but i would rather face my fear than my life sometimes. i don't know. i am starting to feel insane.
I couldn't bare living life as it was when I had major problems with suicidal thoughts. I had just broken up with a girl who had been cutting herself and starving herself. I had everything taken away from me because my parents found out about my depression and thought taking away all hazards would help. I still have thoughts of suicide from time to time, but not as often. But unfortunately, they're pretty bad whenever I think about it.
yeah having dreams and is a good way to escape.. it gives you something to live for me and my girlfriend have plenty
Yes. I had problems accepting myself and I felt that all others thought I was weird and hated me. I'm still not much better, but I guess I'm getting there. Setting goals might work. I dream of the kind of future I want for myself, but the more I dream of it, the further away it seems. I'm mostly getting through by trying not to dwell on bad thoughts, and only concentrating on the good side.
may work for Mali but one of my dreams is having a baby girl lol ima only 19 my girlfriend is less.. thats one dream that can wait a bit for