Recording session for my final project got wrecked by time constraints and time-wasting today. This thing makes up half the marks in my year and it's slowly going to shit..
This holiday season has been extremely difficult for me. This is the first season that I won't even be able to call my dad to wish him a Merry Christmas. It doesn't help that I am in the middle of a bad divorce and won't be with someone who I thought would love me unconditionally, who I've spent time with every Christmas for the last 5 years. I know things will get better, but it is mentally straining and all I want to do is disappear for like a week to get my mind off of everything. I'm not saying anything self harm related, just a vacation from home and work to get away from it all.
Can't wait to move out and be my own person and not have overbearing family or bratty relatives in my life..
I was in a really shitty mood with that post cos I'd had a bad day, think it's more that I just don't feel like I fit in at home anymore more than "HISSS PARENTS SUCCCKKK!" I'm still finishing uni and getting myself in a stable place to move out.
I've spent most of a week I should've had off trying to get my university production dissertation to a stage where my tutor isn't going to be worried about my progress, literally minutes after walking in my door at home, I'm complained at for not doing chores when I've been spending my week trying not to fail uni and I need a minute to rest, can't win...
Overall, when mom passed away, I lived with my brother. When he passed away, I finally gotten a place on my own.