I'm a little late, but I think you're one of the best people I've ever met, and I surely won't judge you for what you do in your spare time, as it's none of my business. I will say, however, I've got the utmost respect for you for telling everyone something you didn't have to tell anyone. It takes a lot of courage to come out and admit something like that — and I'll admit, I thought you were going to admit you were gay, but that's me being presumptuous. It's no secret not everyone has the sexy sauce Derek has, but it's okay to feel that way, really. I mean, I never get compliments in real life on how I look — I rarely ever got comments about it from either of my two girlfriends, which is why I post so many pictures here. It makes me feel good to read comments like the ones I get. It should make you feel good when you get similar comments, as well — and I know you do. I've seen the comments your pictures get. Anyways, as Derek said, maybe it's time you received a makeover. Now, obviously, I'm not talking about a bikini wax and facial reconstructive surgery. New clothes help a lot, and dressing confidently will definitely help even more. I won't lie: wearing "expensive" (as in, not from, say, Walmart) clothing makes you feel good about yourself, to the point where you're not going to care what other people think about you. All that's going to matter is you feel you look good. As far as I'm concerned, you're Time's Person of the Year for admitting what you did. Not many people admit to something like you did unless they're caught off-guard by someone they didn't know was home. To admit it without any prior conviction or being forced to admit it makes you that much better, whether you think it does or not. Your family life might be rough, but you'll be a better person for it, I know it. The struggles of life are what make us all who we are when we're older. If it makes you happy and makes you feel good about yourself, I say keep doing it, until you find other things which make you happy and make you feel good about yourself. I'm not saying you should use it as a crutch to make yourself happy, but if it helps and keeps you from doing something stupid, by all means, keep doing it. Gradually "ween" yourself from doing it, though. Next time you find yourself doing it, smack yourself in the face and say, "No, I've got to find something else." It won't work every time, but eventually, you'll finally get it right. That's my two cents. You're a great guy, a great friend, and you've got more respect from me than I give some of my own friends. We don't know each other well, but that doesn't matter. I feel like we're a lot closer now. After all, how could someone think you're gay when you've proclaimed Kristen Bell your future wife?