Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Okay...Feel better. For me, okay?

 

Okay. For you.

 

Pffft. Lightweight.
literally

 

I'm so glad that life moves on.

Yet,it depresses me right now.
whatev.

edit; I wish though; thinigs didn't turn so sour.
edit: and great, how the flip of luck struck;It just started raining.

 

I'm lost, broken and confused. A Mest lyric, but it's how I feel.

 

Thank you. <3

 

I just had a falling-out with a friend, and I'm feeling oddly indifferent about it.

 

I have been out of the social, music...everything scene since my brother committed suicide. Then for some reason I decided to watch the "Leave Out All the Rest" video.


These Lyrics!

I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
But no one would listen, 'cause no one else cared
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here?

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest

Leave out all the rest, don't be afraid
I've taken my beating, I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

I can't be who you are​

It left me in a ball crying! I was fine! I was doing my assignments! but then I watch that damn thing!

I'm so fucking tired of crying about it! I don't want it to hurt anymore! I want to just live my life! But I don't want to forget my brother!! I could never do that! Not in a thousand years!!!




I just want my brother alive....I just want him alive.....
*the tears of unfathomable sadness*

 

Holly, I think I've said this before, but if you need to vent or talk or anything then just give me a quick PM. I can only imagine how messed up your situation is and I'm truly sorry about what happened to your brother. Keep your chin up though because I know it hurts like hell thinking about the whole thing but I'm sure he would want you to be happy and stop being upset about it. Just hang in there.

 

Holiday: I'm so so sorry. Sometimes it just randomly hurts, even if you're feeling fine. I'm so sorry.

 

This. If you need anything, just pm as well. don't hesitate.

 

Thank you guys! I really appreciate the support!

 

Ugh random, and not even close to the importance of what other people are posting but: have I been really flirty recently or something?! I have random guys that I'm friends telling me how much they really like me and want me to be happy but they wish they could be with me or how they "just wanna hang out" with me, but they wanna take me to a movie and dinner and pay for me. I mean, it's flattering, but, go away! They all know full well that I have a boyfriend of almost two years. And they somehow know how to play my heart strings like a fiddle, because I'm a softie. What are they playing at?

Am I like, giving off a vibe that says "HEY I'M SINGLE FLIRT WITH ME LAWL" because..that sucks. Because I'm not.

 

Holiday:

Arlene-dear: I don't know, maybe you could consider asking one of your girl friends if you've been giving off a "vibe"? I'd fathom they'd probably give you a better answer.

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It pales into insignificance next to a lot of what gets posted in here, but FML . I knew that as soon as I actually got a girlfriend, other oppurtunities would pop up, when they didn't while I was single. And hey, presto.

This all stems from the fact that Tarryn, probably one of my two best friends, who I also had (have?) strong feelings for but never said anything to on account of her being way out of my league, isn't too pleased I'm now taken. Something was said along the lines of "fuck juvies, he could do so much better". So I'm not too sure if she's just saying that generally, or trying to suggest "someone".

Couple that with the fact I've discovered Darcy is the clingiest girl I've ever met in my life, and I have no fucking idea what to do. Blah lol.

 

<3 Honey.

 

I did ask my friend Rachel, and she didn't seem to think that I was, but she doesn't really see me when I'm around guys. Ugh. Plus, the one guy, I worked with over the summer and had a little side crush on, which obviously wasn't as strong or nearly as strong as my love for Josh, but we talked about it recently and it just made him like...WANT ME NOW. Not even sexually. Ugh. And we're like, best friends. And we hung out and it was awkward as all hell...like he kept wanting to flirt with me and touch me and I was like, conflicted because I did used to kinda like him and I really think he's a great guy, but I was just like, ack JOSH! Friggin' stupid. I have Josh. I'm happy. He loves me, and I love him. I don't need other random people to try to butt in and confuse the crap out of me.

As for you, well, I say that you should just kinda stick with Darcy and see how it goes. What if Tarryn is just saying that as a general thing? That maybe she just doesn't like you with Darcy because she's a little younger than you? And if you broke up with her thinking that Tarryn might get with you...what if she doesn't? You would lose that opportunity for a potentially great relationship. Ya never know, you might decide that you don't want to be with Darcy, but you guys are brand new...I think you should maybe try to explore your relationship more. *shrug* I dunno.

 

No, that was exactly my thinking. I'm just going to see how things go.

. You don't need that shit.

 

Geez...looks like everybody in here right now needs a hug.



Course, different hugs for different people.

 

What the hell man, what's wrong with me? Lately I'm so...erotically charged, I could nail anyone. And it doesn't help that one of my friends who I work with is too nice for me.