As soon as i thought i could have her again I let you go You fell away but i couldnt feel what i did for you for her i never could In my mind im still with you i lay my back against the wall at night pretending it's her We can never have it again Thats what she said I said 'I've changed She didnt beleive me And neither did i It was all a lie A lie to get her back I can never change Im still doing those stupid little pills I'm a mess without them a complete fucking mess I guess it's a poem, Or something i'm not too sure. There is alot of things going on with me just now, I've never told anyone but i'm addicted to prescription painkillers, It's ridiculous but i am aware that alot of people have the same problem. I'm also still in love with my ex girlfriend, She is the only person i have ever been truly in love with and it hurts like hell because she is 23 and seeing a 16 year old BOY!. I dont think it would be so bad if he was a bit older. It's been hurting like this for the past 4 months with no let up whatsoever. After we split up i started seeing another girl who my ex knows and works with (We all work in the same place) But it didn't work out because i couldn't develop any feelings for her and she didn't take it too well when i told her that. Just thought i'd give you guys a little insight into the actual words.